Meh

Have felt too crappy to write lately. Not sure yet if it even helps. 

I withdrew from the class I started 2 weeks ago. Thats basically $800 down the drain because I can’t function. I tried. I couldn’t do my homework. I just could not function.

I scraped someone’s car in the parking lot at work a couple days ago. I did the decent thing and left a note. My insurance company called me later to get details. I’ve never been in an accident before, even something that small. Ugh. Figures.

I haven’t been sleeping well. I have never had a problem sleeping before, even in my worst episodes. But this past week or 2 I have had a real problem. 

I have been getting dizzy a lot. Especially at work. Dizzy and heart palpitations and increased heart rate, sometimes sweating for no reason… That first day I assumed it was low blood sugar- its not. I’m convinced it is all psychosomatic. It got to the point where my closest coworker told me I needed to go to the doctor.

I have a counselor appointment this week. I haven’t been in months. But… I think it’s neccesary. I can’t remember the last time I felt this bad for this long.